Slacking Off

I seem to have drifted away from my promise to myself to keep up with all my work and do more than I did last year. It hasn't gotten to the point where I'm doing homework in school but it has gotten to the point where I'm pulling late nights because I didn't finish it earlier in the day. I failed my first test in like ever. It was my first AP World History test. Only one person passed in the 3rd period class I wish that one person was me but I have some ideas on how to study for the next up coming test. I do plan to take some notes as I read as my english teacher Mr. Mcgee said be an active reader where your taking notes, and finding ways to interpret the reading. I'm also going to get the summarization of the chapters for when I'm about to take the test and I want to read over something quickly. I also have a new task for science research thats due in two weeks. I've already started i'm just not sure what else to do about my laziness. I guess I have to get used to not just breezing past my classes anymore, although math I have no competition right now.

Guys

Lately there has only been one person that I've been into since I came back from Panama, when I got back he seemed to have wanted me too now he doesn't seem interested. Why is it that people want what they can't have? The guys that do seem somewhat into me are not the ones I want. I guess its really time for me to move on and just be happy with what I'm offered. I don't get the bottom of the bucket guys but I can't seem to catch the ones that I want in my life. I no longer expect there to be a guy that I want to be into me so I've decided to give up. By the way, Alberto and Marc are both back. Alberto in math and Marc in History I hope everything works out for them this year. They are seniors now, so graduation is just around the corner.

Week 2

Nothing new to report again. Its not as boring as it was shaping out to be before. I'm starting to get used to getting up at 5:30 in the morning, its becoming second nature. Today I didn't go to school because I had internship orientation. I would have rather been at school anyday of the week than sit through that. I finally told Dramatic that I've come to accept the fact that I'm not always going to be there. Thats All Folks!!!!

Here

I'm at home alone and the funny thing is theres people here. I'm lonely in a house full of people. I hate being home now it's like nobody seems to want me around. My father and I don't have the same connection anymore, my mother and I still don't see the same page, my brothers wish Cyre and I would switch places. It seems like my presence just isn't wanted I'm tired of being where I'm not wanted.

Week 1

I really don't know what to say after a week of school as far as I'm concerned I'm slipping into my old habits of waiting to the last minute and slacking off. As my excuse I give the response I thrive under pressure but what if that was just luck? What do I do then? This seems to be my opportunity to put my best foot forward, my real time to shine but I just haven't had that starting push yet. I will though as a promise to myself I'm going to actually put my self on a schedule so that i can focus on one task at a time. I realized after I spent thursday catching up that if I just did what I was supposed to do when I got it even if it didn't have s due date I wouldn't have to pick a day to play catch up. I also want to get out of my procrastination now so that when I start campaigning and if I win I'll have another work load pushed on top of me and I plan to succeed in everything I put my hands on this year.This year will be making above ninety in all my classes, sophomore president, and internship.

Dramatic

I really wish he was feeling better. I also wish I could see him today but I guess that its out of my hands. I don't know why hes choosing to starve himself he knows if he ever feels hungry and I can afford it he can eat as much as possible, but I guess him not being comfortable with his weight is making him make decision I don't completely agree with.

Internship

Okay at least I'm not as bored as I was when I started school. I now have homework to do,Yay!! I have interviews to start getting an internship. I think I'm actually dreading getting one, I don't know maybe I'm just not as interested in the medical field or maybe I just don't know what to expect and I'm preparing for the worst.

School

I guess I'm finally getting into the swing of things. It seems as though I can tolerate all of my teachers, so far they seem to talk a lot but no major attitudes. I have a few classes that I wasn't to sure about keeping like Science Research and AP History but I was reminded that I'm a show off and those classes are right up my alley to show off my skills so I'm keeping my schedule just the way it it.

Starts.....

Hell starts tomorrow and continues on for the next ten months with very few breaks and holidays. Why me? It seems so unfair.

My Champion

For as long as I can remember my father has always been my champion. He has been the one person I could always talk to and confide in now it seems like as I look at him he has fallen from grace. Maybe it's just like a fairytale my champion can't be my father forever eventually that role has to be given to only person that I trust more than him, to the person I can depend on to be there for me, to the person who I can hold onto and feel completely safe and loved with. Then again maybe its just me maybe I put my father up so high in my book that the things that I don't approve of with him make him less of the hero than I want. People can't have a fairytale life, so I guess it's just time to understand that.

Am I asking to much by looking for that hero?

M!ck3y 4 Pres

I am just posting as a special guest. M!ck3y is running for Sophomore Class President.

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Happy Period Ecards

I thought this was so cute. http://beinggirl.com/en_US/happy/images/Ecards/bdy_manifesto.jpg