Colleges

They're swarming my mailbox with mail lately. I don't even know what I want to do yet alone where I want to go. Today alone I got Merrimack, Temple, Northeastern, Tulane, Saint Rose, Chicago, RIT. this week so far 13 colleges.

Happy Valentine's Day

Computer Love rev-2, originally uploaded by Dramatic.

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.

Mickey doesn't know how special she is to me. I don't know how to say it. She is worth more than a garden of flowers in the desert and all the money in all the world. Today is Valentine's Day and I feel I should be showering her with gifts and flowers. She's been there for me since I met her. She is the definition of a true friend on every level. I love you.

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3 types of sex

I was in Math talking to my twin Kim Bell, (I know her name is so dull but shes cool) we actually look kind of a like she might be alittle taller, and her breast are a little smaller, but thats about it. Anyway we were talking about what kinds of sex we've had and like whats the difference between them. So although she's two years older than me I'm the slightly more experienced one even though I haven't had truck loads of men I've had enough. Continuing she said she's made love before, I don't know for sure if I have or if it was reciprocated but I think I have. The thing about making love is that its special, its not hit it and quit it. Its taking your time, giving your partner as much pleasure as you possibly can, becoming one, reaching the limit and back again, and all that other good stuff. The most important thing is the connection between the two people, the chemistry, the pull. thats the first type. Second I know I at least have had sex. Its simple pleasure but not the same connection. Theres just something missing. Third both of us have experienced this which is just fucking plain simple, no connection, bust a nut sex. Now I never said any of these can't be wild and sweaty, I'm just saying that its mostly the connection. I know people are probably thinking you know why are we talking about this in math but thats the only period i see her and my twin and me don't need to really talking through all the words and we can use sign language and eye contact.

Alone

I don't care who gets offended with this post or who thinks I'm trying to piss them off, get over yourselves my feelings are mine they have nothing to do with you. Its just how I feel. Sorry If you think I'm being stupid. I feel alone completely alone. No matter how many people are surrounding me I feel alone. The first person I really ever considered my best friend deserted me and I could deal with it however badly but I could still deal with it. Now Dramatic seems so distant and I feel like I can't even talk to him. My questions piss him off, being me and doing the stupid things that are me even pisses him off. Anyway what I'm trying to say is I'm used to being alone if you don't want to be part of my life please just go, I'm tired of feeling like I have to beg people to stay just go.